Existentialism on prom night

So I'm in an airport, waiting to travel home for a little break. It feels like I'm about to start a new chapter, I don't know. Like a big change happened. It hasn't really, but its how it seems. I passed my oral exam, the next big step on my way to my PhD. As of now, I'm kind of on cruise control with it, and seem way way way ahead of schedule. My oral was exceptionally good, I am told, and now I get ready to publish :-) .

As far as Minnesota goes, Milli decided we shouldn't talk again, which I'm OK with. The phone number is gone, and she has the option to contact me if she ever feels like it. In all honesty, its hard for me to care too much about that. I mean, compared to Erica, Erin, Sabrina, hell even Megan, this was like a little summer fling I guess? I've gotten good at getting over things, and I'm not really sure there was that much to get over in the first place. One thing I've learned about myself is its much easier for me to control/direct my emotions than I think most people can. Its easy for me to like someone, but its also easy for me to move on/turn it off. Anyways, its over, and I get to keep a nice little box of memories, and burn whatever I don't need from it. Its the best way to live life, or at least the only way I know how.

Speaking of which, randomness seems to be my thing lately. Not randomness in the actions, but in the more cosmic sense. Like fate, random little events keep giving me adventures, keep me moving, and I'm trying to just embrace it for now.

I got a message from this woman I met on the plane last time I was in Oregon, Chrissy. No contact with her since then (about 6 months ago). Turns out, there is this 100 mile relay race in Vermont at the end of August (6 people per team, 14-18 miles of running depending on the leg), and I got asked to be a team member since she is on a team who needs one more runner. So I'm going to be running (racing?) in Vermont, which I think is going to be really cool. I've never actually been, so chalk this up for more experience. I guess while I'm young, I'm enjoying collecting them.



Maybe at some point, I'll be done. And have all the experiences I need before moving on to the next moment. But not yet, not now. Now I'm content to collect these moments. Its been a wild, fun ride, the last few years. And I plan to keep it that way.


Existentialism on Prom Night - Straylight Run

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hXdLUcqwBSg

Beyond beautiful...

Sing me something soft,
Sad and delicate,
Or loud and out of key,
Sing me anything,
we're glad for what we've got,
Done with what we've lost
Our whole lives laid out right in front of us,

Sing like you think no one's listening,
You would kill for this,
Just a little bit,
Just a little bit,
You would